For those of you whom this blog is not directed at, please don't think I am psycho because I am not.
Okay, I am just a little(LOL). All jokes aside, please know that I can carry a grudge for a long time. However, in that same vein, I can be as loyal as a dog. What can I say, I am not just intense, I am intensity! The following blog is very angry, graphic and to a certain extent, disturbing even for me but I had to get this out. I have carried around this anger for a long time and still carry it around to a certain extent because even though I am occasionally inappropriate and somewhat undiplomatic, I didn't deserve what this person did/tried to do to me.
I probably will carry it around for a lot longer until I can personally unload it on the person it is meant for-face to face. Believe it or not, I can be pretty laid back when not provoked. I am a nice person or at least I can be despite the impression I give.
Remember the so-called friend that tried to help my significant other's ex-girlfriend break us up? Well this is directed unapologetically at you. You pretended to be a friend to my significant other and myself. You are more poisonous than the animals you handle and many of them can kill as soon as you turn your back on them. This was a mistake I made and you exploited that to no end.
Anything bad that happens to you isn't enough for what you did and the purpose behind your actions. I hope you suffer in your old age and suffer even more when you are rotting in Hell.
You pretend that you don't know why I avoid you like the plague...but you know! If you didn't do anything wrong you wouldn't have a problem picking up the phone and you asking me how I am doing instead of asking other people who associate with me. You pretend to be hurt because we don't come around your house anymore yet you never ask me why we don't come around. Do you not address me because you are scared of the answer that will be released from my lips at ear-piercing levels?
Don't pretend you're not because I know you are scared of me! In fact, it is a bit disturbing how much satisfaction I get out of your fear. It gives me a warm and fuzzy feeling.
What I don't understand is why you are you scared if you truly didn't do anything wrong! You shouldn't be scared of me and you shouldn't be afraid to invite us over or ask me why we haven't come over. Don't act as though you don't know what I am talking about because in all honesty, you know who you are, what you did and you know why communication has ceased between us. Part of it is for your safety because I don't know what I would do to you if you got in my crosshairs and my husband or the police weren't there to stop me!
Yes, I despise you this much.
Let's just say you and me in a dark alley won't end in a hug, a pleasant handshake or swapping spit in the moonlight! In case you honestly and sincerely do not know what I am talking about, then I will refresh your memory.
Where to begin? Shall I start with the dehumanization process or shall I start with the blatant cockblocking in my own relationship? What about the failed attempts to plant the seeds of jealousy or create some BS story to try to get us to fight and others to ignore me? Don't think I don't know about the Pussy Whipped insinuation during "Dinner and a Tattoo". Was there a mirror close by and were were looking into it when you mistakenly accused him of being "whipped"? I ask because I question who the real Whipped one was and is! Weren't you the one that was "not allowed" to go to another individual's bachelor party? My significant other went while you were at home unable to attend because of your wife's jealousy. How about the instances when you would invite my significant other over to your house for dinner without me, even though you were fully aware that he was going to meet up with me around that time? Shall we also talk about how you would try to "hook him up" in my presence and make it look like it was a "serendipidous seating arrangement"? How coincidental that he would always be seated next to the single girl and there would be no other chair available for me! You always assumed I wasn't going to show! You know what they say about people who "ass"-ume! How about the fact that you, in partnership with his ex-girlfriend, tried to take me out of the picture. You and this wench were in cahoots for the first four years of our relationship. You only offered to help her because you knew he wouldn't take her back and if I wasn't in the picture then his choices would be limited to your barely legal daughter whom he had already rejected once.
That's right, this was the barely legal daughter who suffers from daddy issues! Gee, with a father like you, I am perplexed as to why she would have those kinds of issues! Don't think I didn't realize that after talking to you, his ex would start communicating INTENSELY through calls, correspondence, etc.
Maybe I should also mention how you behaved when a certain person, whom you treated poorly and inhumanely in life, died of cancer! You overcompensated and it was soooo blatant! Was it remorse or was it the fact that your true colors were showing and you had to conceal it before anyone could get your number? I believe it is the latter. You don't want people to see how much of a controlling, selfish and nosy ASSHOLE you really are but I see right through the facade and others are starting to catch on. It just blows my mind that your wife is too blind to see it! Shame! She is such a nice person and gorgeous too!
It wasn't nice that you tried to shut me out from the deceased individual's family so that I could not pay my respects. I, too, wanted to pay my respects because I genuinely liked this person whom you ostracized like you tried to ostracize me. I think that was one thing he and I had in common. We know what it was like being the odd man out in your little game of "circle of friends". You were constantly with his parents rather than letting other people come near them. I was able to eventually pay my respects, by the way, no thanks to you. They called me to let me know that they were leaving the following morning and wanted to thank me for being so supportive which meant a lot to me considering I didn't feel I did enough to help them gather their son's things and go through such a heart wrenching experience.
No parent should have to bury a child. You accused me of being inappropriate but your behavior during that whole time was reprehensible, deplorable and downright worse than anything I could ever do because your behavior was intentional.
But they cared enough to say goodbye in spite of your efforts.
I think I will start with the dehumanization process because even though you don't like me and, some people question my humanity, I am still human and you did everything in your power to fuck me over.
Why did you take such an interest in my significant other the way you did?
Was it that you were trying to find your daughter a suitable mate or was it because you wanted him for yourself in spite of the fact that you have wife?
Yes, I said it!!!
What are you going to do about it?
The thought of your potentially homosexual obsession with my significant other did cross my mind considering how much of an interest you took in his sex life.
I heard that nasty yet colorful message you left on his answering machine. Does, "pull it out, dry it off and answer the phone" sound familiar? I remember it as though I heard the message just yesterday.
Or did you want me because I didn't give you the time of day and you couldn't stand to be ignored and undesired by a woman?
In any case, it is so hard to pinpoint why you did what you did because you possess such a twisted, poisonous mind and a dark soul deprived completely of light! It is sad that someone like you even reproduced because all that evil you possess has been passed on to yet another generation! Hopefully, that daughter with daddy issues is smart enough to break the cycle!
(To be continued)
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